Real Love Will Always Find You (Part 2)

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***If you haven’t already done so, check out the About Me section of the blog. For the next 13 weeks, I will be writing about how my husband and I met. I will be switching up the format for the posts. Instead of W.O.R.D. it will be R.O.W.D. to help my stories flow a lil’ betta. Ok? Cool? Now, on with the story…

R I had to admit, he had a clever way of getting my number.

Even though he had other intentions for using it, Wolverine stayed true to his word of using the phone number to communicate solely about NAL stuff. Yes, he stopped attending NAL practices, but he continued to help me coach the team in other ways. He met with kids during his lunch break to go over trivia questions and gave me reference materials, tips and strategies to help us win competitions.

And we did win! The team was undefeated. We had tremendous support from our principal, teachers, staff, parents, and school community. Things were going great. At least in that area of my life.

When I think back to that period of time, there are two words to describe that season: lonely and dark. I was trying to bounce back from a failed relationship. Still dealing with the sadness of how things had ended. Yes, it was the will of God to sever all ties with the guy, but the process of moving forward was not easy. I would like to say that I was good, but I wasn’t.

It was hard. I was frustrated just thinking about the time, energy, and effort I put into the relationship. The heartbreak was painful. And it didn’t help that the guy would call me every so often “just to check in and see how I was doing.” UGH! Then, add that to the other things I had going on: staying on top of my workload, family drama, bills…lol…you name it! It was a rough time.

I held it together on the outside, though. No one knew what I was really feeling on the inside. Cause I was always wearing a smile. Always telling jokes. On top of my game. Never lettin’ anyone see me sweat.

But God knew.

Kirk Franklin’s “The Fight of My Life” was the soundtrack of my life! I literally played the whole album every day when I got to work. Occasionally, I would find myself crying to three songs: “Help Me Believe,” “Hide Me,” and “It Would Take All Day.”

The lyrics of “Help Me Believe” definitely describes EVERYTHING I was feeling:

I wanna believe
But I’m having a hard time seeing past what I see right now, I see right now
I wanna be free
But when I try to fly I realize I don’t know how, no one showed me how
Wish I could see that this mess I’m in will really work out for my good, you said it would
So, if you can hear me, can you give me a sign cause I don’t feel you like I should, please if you could
My faith is almost gone, I can’t hold on much longer, take this cup from me

Help me believe
Can I believe
Let me believe
I wanna believe
I’m no good on my own, please give me another chance
It’s hard to believe in what I can’t see
To give you my will cause you’re what’s better for
You can look in my eyes and see I wanna believe, believe, believe, believe

All of the pain and challenges I was going through worked to my advantage ‘cause it drew me closer to God. I wanted to know more about Him. I had a strong desire to pursue God’s will for my life. So, I started reading the Bible more. Studying. Fasting. Praying. Attending weekly church services. Doing whatever I could to strengthen my walk with the Lord.

I remember reading a book by Shannon Ethridge called Every Single Woman’s Battle: Guarding Your Heart and Mind Against Sexual and Emotional Compromise. I stumbled upon the book at the library and after reading it I knew it was God’s plan for me to find that book. It put a lot of things into perspective for me regarding dating and being a single woman. Reading the book was a game changer. The book inspired me to stay true to God’s Word. To never compromise my values, morals, and faith for anyone or anything!!!

I had a mindset to stand on the Word of God! I believed if I put God first, everything else in my life would fall into place. Knowing the truth about God’s love for me gave me the confidence I needed to trust Him. He knew the desires of my heart and in His time, they would be manifested in my life.

With my mind stayed on Jesus, I was able to navigate each and every storm with a renewed assurance that everything was gonna be alright! All things were working together for my good.

All the while, I continuously prayed that God would help me to believe His plan for my life was perfect. I could trust Him.

One day, in my quiet time with the Lord, He prompted me to pray for everything I wanted out of life. Then, He asked me to write down all the qualities I wanted in a husband. Being obedient, I got to work. I was able to dig up my old journal and I actually found the list (don’t judge me…heehee):

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Stay tuned for the rest of the story in Part 3…find out what those red checks on the list represent!

Signed, MrsMKauthor

O As I stated in previous posts:

If you are waiting on the Lord for ANYTHING, continue to WAIT on Him! He might not come WHEN you want HIM or HOW you want Him BUT HE IS ALWAYS ON TIME!

Here are the Top 10 Lessons I learned from this experience. I hope it encourages you:

1. God will never leave us or forsake us (Hebrews 13:5).

2. Jesus encourages us to not worry about our lives because God knows everything that we need. We must put God first by seeking the Lord (with a pure heart and not for selfish motives). In turn, He promises to take care of us (Matthew 6:25-34).

3. God wants us to love Him with all our heart, soul, and mind (Matthew 22:37).

4. If we take delight in the Lord, God promises to give us the desires of our heart (Psalm 37:4).

5. Never lose your faith (Hebrews 10:23).

6. Hold onto God’s unchanging hand (Isaiah 41:10).

7. God cares about EVERYTHING concerning YOU (1 Peter 5:7)!

8. If God says He is going to do it, TRUST HIM AT HIS WORD! (Isaiah 55:8-9, Habakkuk 2:3).

9. God is not a man that He should lie! He does not change His mind! (Numbers 23:19).

10. He WILL bring to pass, everything He has spoken over Your life! Believe it! (Isaiah 55:10-11).

 W Habakkuk 2:2-3 New International Version (NIV)

Then the Lord replied:

“Write down the revelation
and make it plain on tablets
so that a herald may run with it.
For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it will certainly come
and will not delay.

D Dear God, Thank You for Your goodness and mercy that will follow me all the days of my life. Heavenly Father, I thank You for being honest and loyal. Thank You for being patient with me when I had doubts about Your plans for my life. Thank You for getting me this far in my journey. Thank You for believing in me when I did not have the strength to believe for myself. Thank You for always seeing the good in me and for always seeing me now as “what I shall be!” You are awesome!

God, I pray for my friends that are reading this post. I pray that You will bless them abundantly. I pray that You will lead and guide them in their journey, especially during the tough times. Send Your Holy Spirit to comfort them. Show them signs of Your goodness! Send people into their lives to encourage them and build them up. Father, as they seek You, I ask that You give them the desires of their heart. Help them to be patient as they wait for You. You said in Your Word the salvation of the righteous comes from You. May You be their stronghold in times of trouble. May You help and deliver them as they take refuge in You.

You are worthy to be praised! May You get the glory and honor out of our lives. We love You.

In Jesus name, Amen

 

2 thoughts on “Real Love Will Always Find You (Part 2)

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