Real Love Will Always Find You (Part 2)

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***If you haven’t already done so, check out the About Me section of the blog. For the next 13 weeks, I will be writing about how my husband and I met. I will be switching up the format for the posts. Instead of W.O.R.D. it will be R.O.W.D. to help my stories flow a lil’ betta. Ok? Cool? Now, on with the story…

R I had to admit, he had a clever way of getting my number.

Even though he had other intentions for using it, Wolverine stayed true to his word of using the phone number to communicate solely about NAL stuff. Yes, he stopped attending NAL practices, but he continued to help me coach the team in other ways. He met with kids during his lunch break to go over trivia questions and gave me reference materials, tips and strategies to help us win competitions.

And we did win! The team was undefeated. We had tremendous support from our principal, teachers, staff, parents, and school community. Things were going great. At least in that area of my life.

When I think back to that period of time, there are two words to describe that season: lonely and dark. I was trying to bounce back from a failed relationship. Still dealing with the sadness of how things had ended. Yes, it was the will of God to sever all ties with the guy, but the process of moving forward was not easy. I would like to say that I was good, but I wasn’t.

It was hard. I was frustrated just thinking about the time, energy, and effort I put into the relationship. The heartbreak was painful. And it didn’t help that the guy would call me every so often “just to check in and see how I was doing.” UGH! Then, add that to the other things I had going on: staying on top of my workload, family drama, bills…lol…you name it! It was a rough time.

I held it together on the outside, though. No one knew what I was really feeling on the inside. Cause I was always wearing a smile. Always telling jokes. On top of my game. Never lettin’ anyone see me sweat.

But God knew.

Kirk Franklin’s “The Fight of My Life” was the soundtrack of my life! I literally played the whole album every day when I got to work. Occasionally, I would find myself crying to three songs: “Help Me Believe,” “Hide Me,” and “It Would Take All Day.”

The lyrics of “Help Me Believe” definitely describes EVERYTHING I was feeling:

I wanna believe
But I’m having a hard time seeing past what I see right now, I see right now
I wanna be free
But when I try to fly I realize I don’t know how, no one showed me how
Wish I could see that this mess I’m in will really work out for my good, you said it would
So, if you can hear me, can you give me a sign cause I don’t feel you like I should, please if you could
My faith is almost gone, I can’t hold on much longer, take this cup from me

Help me believe
Can I believe
Let me believe
I wanna believe
I’m no good on my own, please give me another chance
It’s hard to believe in what I can’t see
To give you my will cause you’re what’s better for
You can look in my eyes and see I wanna believe, believe, believe, believe

All of the pain and challenges I was going through worked to my advantage ‘cause it drew me closer to God. I wanted to know more about Him. I had a strong desire to pursue God’s will for my life. So, I started reading the Bible more. Studying. Fasting. Praying. Attending weekly church services. Doing whatever I could to strengthen my walk with the Lord.

I remember reading a book by Shannon Ethridge called Every Single Woman’s Battle: Guarding Your Heart and Mind Against Sexual and Emotional Compromise. I stumbled upon the book at the library and after reading it I knew it was God’s plan for me to find that book. It put a lot of things into perspective for me regarding dating and being a single woman. Reading the book was a game changer. The book inspired me to stay true to God’s Word. To never compromise my values, morals, and faith for anyone or anything!!!

I had a mindset to stand on the Word of God! I believed if I put God first, everything else in my life would fall into place. Knowing the truth about God’s love for me gave me the confidence I needed to trust Him. He knew the desires of my heart and in His time, they would be manifested in my life.

With my mind stayed on Jesus, I was able to navigate each and every storm with a renewed assurance that everything was gonna be alright! All things were working together for my good.

All the while, I continuously prayed that God would help me to believe His plan for my life was perfect. I could trust Him.

One day, in my quiet time with the Lord, He prompted me to pray for everything I wanted out of life. Then, He asked me to write down all the qualities I wanted in a husband. Being obedient, I got to work. I was able to dig up my old journal and I actually found the list (don’t judge me…heehee):

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Stay tuned for the rest of the story in Part 3…find out what those red checks on the list represent!

Signed, MrsMKauthor

O As I stated in previous posts:

If you are waiting on the Lord for ANYTHING, continue to WAIT on Him! He might not come WHEN you want HIM or HOW you want Him BUT HE IS ALWAYS ON TIME!

Here are the Top 10 Lessons I learned from this experience. I hope it encourages you:

1. God will never leave us or forsake us (Hebrews 13:5).

2. Jesus encourages us to not worry about our lives because God knows everything that we need. We must put God first by seeking the Lord (with a pure heart and not for selfish motives). In turn, He promises to take care of us (Matthew 6:25-34).

3. God wants us to love Him with all our heart, soul, and mind (Matthew 22:37).

4. If we take delight in the Lord, God promises to give us the desires of our heart (Psalm 37:4).

5. Never lose your faith (Hebrews 10:23).

6. Hold onto God’s unchanging hand (Isaiah 41:10).

7. God cares about EVERYTHING concerning YOU (1 Peter 5:7)!

8. If God says He is going to do it, TRUST HIM AT HIS WORD! (Isaiah 55:8-9, Habakkuk 2:3).

9. God is not a man that He should lie! He does not change His mind! (Numbers 23:19).

10. He WILL bring to pass, everything He has spoken over Your life! Believe it! (Isaiah 55:10-11).

 W Habakkuk 2:2-3 New International Version (NIV)

Then the Lord replied:

“Write down the revelation
and make it plain on tablets
so that a herald may run with it.
For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it will certainly come
and will not delay.

D Dear God, Thank You for Your goodness and mercy that will follow me all the days of my life. Heavenly Father, I thank You for being honest and loyal. Thank You for being patient with me when I had doubts about Your plans for my life. Thank You for getting me this far in my journey. Thank You for believing in me when I did not have the strength to believe for myself. Thank You for always seeing the good in me and for always seeing me now as “what I shall be!” You are awesome!

God, I pray for my friends that are reading this post. I pray that You will bless them abundantly. I pray that You will lead and guide them in their journey, especially during the tough times. Send Your Holy Spirit to comfort them. Show them signs of Your goodness! Send people into their lives to encourage them and build them up. Father, as they seek You, I ask that You give them the desires of their heart. Help them to be patient as they wait for You. You said in Your Word the salvation of the righteous comes from You. May You be their stronghold in times of trouble. May You help and deliver them as they take refuge in You.

You are worthy to be praised! May You get the glory and honor out of our lives. We love You.

In Jesus name, Amen

 

Stop letting negative thoughts kill you!

What are you focused on?

What are you worried about?

What’s got you stressing?

What is keeping you up at night?

Are you feeling depressed or hopeless?

Are you stressing over things you cannot control?

Are you worried about your relationships?

Are you having issues with your family?

Are friends letting you down?

Are you struggling to pay bills?

Are you grieving the death of a loved one?

Do you need healing in your body?

Are you having doubts about your purpose in life?

Do negative thoughts control how you see yourself?

If you answered yes to any of these questions, please take 23 minutes out of your day to watch the video clip below!

I was led to take a break from the series I am working on to post this.

Someone needs this today!!!! Stop focusing on what’s going wrong because you will miss what’s going right!

Your mind is your power! Get your mind back and you will get your power back!

Real Love Will Always Find You (Part 1)

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***If you haven’t already done so, check out the About Me section of the blog. For the next 13 weeks, I will be writing about how my husband and I met. I will be switching up the format for the posts. Instead of W.O.R.D. it will be R.O.W.D. to help my stories flow a lil’ betta. Ok? Cool? Now, on with the story…

R Man, I was focused.

Focused on me. Making time to pamper myself. Manicures and pedicures every other Friday. Trips to the hair salon every two weeks. Visits to the library and church on weekends. Frequent trips to any restaurant of my choice. Occasional runs to the mall for retail therapy. Nights around the town with my besties. Vacations lined up.

Yup, I was doing me. Cause I had it like that…you know, being newly single and all. I wanted to invest in myself so that I could be the best me I could be: physically, emotionally, spiritually, socially, intellectually…all that.

Motivated to excel in every area of my life, I set short term and long-term goals. I was determined to accomplish them all, including career goals.

And I was making it all happen, too! Being immersed in the process of bettering myself, I had very little time for distractions.

That’s why I was extremely taken aback when one of my friends burst through my classroom door to tell me some gossip. Surprisingly, I was the topic of discussion at happy hour the previous night. There were 20 minutes remaining to prepare my lesson before students arrived that morning, so I was pressed for time.

Observing her energy and the expression on her face, I thought something serious was going down that warranted my undivided attention. Naw…she stopped by my room to tell me some he said, she said stuff: A teacher had a crush on me…he liked me and thought I was attractive.

Not knowing how to receive the information, I brushed it off. I needed to get on with my day. The school bell was going to ring at any moment. Plus, I didn’t even recognize the name of the teacher who made the comments about me. Before she left, however, I asked her to describe the person. I couldn’t believe it—Wolverine had made the comments!!!!!!! Took me by surprise because he was always quiet the few times I saw him, rarely made eye contact and didn’t seem to care for me.

I laughed out loud. Why was my name brought up at their lil’ happy hour outing? I hung out with maybe one or two of my colleagues every now and again, but I didn’t do the happy hour stuff after work. Just wasn’t my thang, you know?  I didn’t know what to make of the comments. Therefore, I moved on. Went on about my day.

Besides, there was no way in the world that I was going to entertain the idea of possibly dating a co-worker. I’ve never really been that type of person. I always thought “work relationships” were unprofessional. I didn’t have time. I was busy.

My work days were long—sometimes turning into nights. Meeting with students, conferencing with parents, planning with colleagues, working on lesson plans, attending leadership meetings, organizing events, so and so on… I had no time to entertain any hearsay. Especially since I had agreed to coach the National Academic League at the school. Being a novice coach, there was so much I had to learn and learn fast in order to prepare my team to win! With all that I had going on, I was swamped. I needed help. So, I began asking the staff to assist me in preparing the kids for the games.

And then I got an email from Wolverine saying he would volunteer at the practice games. I was pumped ‘cause I needed all the help I could get. Several of his students were on the team, which worked out since he could practice with them during the school day.

Wolverine showed up to a handful of practices in my classroom after school. He was a big help, too. He ran copies for me, taught mini-lessons, and drilled the kids on math, English/language arts, science, and social studies questions. I was grateful to have his assistance, in addition to the support my team received from other faculty members.

Our hard work paid off because my team was undefeated. We were recognized throughout the school for our success! Teachers and staff were reaching out to me to send congratulations to the team. Emails were coming in left and right.

One email stood out to me, though. It was from Wolverine. We communicated via email concerning NAL practice every now and again. But this email caught me off guard because he asked for my phone number.

I was reluctant to give it to him. There was no real need for him to have it, since exchanging emails about the games worked perfectly. Still, he persisted. Saying it would be a lot easier for us to communicate if we exchanged text messages instead of emails. And I bought into it.

Funny ‘cause after I gave him my number, I never saw him at another practice!

Remember I told you he had game? Turns out the only reason he reached out to help me with my NAL team was to get my phone number!!!!!!! Mission accomplished for him I guess…LOL!

It was cool, though. I had no intention of giving him any of my time outside of school anyway.

Little did I know, all of that would change in a matter of time…

Signed, MrsMKauthor

O Wolverine was my husband. Obviously, I didn’t know it at the time, but God knew! That blows my mind! I had no idea.

I wasn’t looking for a boyfriend—better yet, a husband. I had just gotten out of relationship and I had too much going on in my life to be starting a new one.

I didn’t want to be bothered with dating. I decided to focus on bettering myself and maturing my relationship with the Lord. If it was God’s plan for me to be married, He would send the right person into my life. In the meantime, I would wait on the Lord.

My advice: If you are waiting on the Lord for ANYTHING, continue to WAIT on Him! He might not come WHEN you want HIM or HOW you want Him BUT HE IS ALWAYS ON TIME!

 W Psalm 27:13-14 New International Version (NIV)

I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living.
 Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord.

D Dear God, I will wait for You. You know what’s best for me. I will stand on Your Word in Jeremiah 30:18: …the Lord longs to be gracious to [me]; therefore he will rise up to show [me] compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him! Help me to be patient and wait for You, dear God, in all situations.

In Jesus name, Amen

Wait…and You Will See the Goodness of the Lord

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***If you haven’t already done so, check out the About Me section of the blog. For the next 13 weeks, I will be writing about how my husband and I met. I will be switching up the format for the posts. Instead of W.O.R.D. it will be R.O.W.D. to help my stories flow a lil’ betta. Ok? Cool? Now, on with the story…

R I used to see him around the school every now again. In the hallway. Staff meetings. Or at the copy machine. It wasn’t a big deal though because I wasn’t checking for him. He was just another co-worker.

I remember the one day I saw him at the laminating machine. Being the BOSS chick I am, everything in my classroom was pretty much prepared and ready for the first week of school. Except for laminating my posters.

As I walked into the teachers’ lounge, I saw one of the secretaries. Lord knows that was never a good sign. It meant that someone either broke or was about to break the school’s one and only laminating machine. It was a precious commodity because the school’s budget was tight, and my principal told us directly she would not be using a lot of the money for repairs. So, I instantly sighed a sigh of annoyance when I saw the secretary hovering over the machine.

Rolling my eyes, I noticed the rookie standing behind her. This was the second time I would talk to him since we bumped into each other in the parking lot days earlier.

Oh, no! I thought to myself. Wolverine done broke the machine!!!!!

Talking to the secretary, I said, “Hey, what’s going on? Did someone break the laminator?”

“No, I am teaching him how to work it,” she replied. “He is one of our new teachers.”

“I see,” I said sarcastically under my breath.

“Isn’t he handsome?” I remember her saying. “All the teachers around here are talking about him.”

Whoa! I couldn’t believe she was saying this to his face. I always prided myself on being professional at work at all times—keeping all work relations “work related”, you know? And I intended to keep it that way.

“Yeah, he is cute!” I said mockingly. “Very handsome, BUT I need to get these posters done. How long are y’all going to be?”

I can’t remember her direct response or his ‘cause he was just standing there looking clueless…LOL! But I do remember letting them know I was in a hurry to get my posters done. I had other things to do besides stand there and wait another 30 minutes for this “Laminating How-To seminar” to be over and done with.

Joking, I turned to the rookie and said, “Well, I am going to leave my posters here. After you get finished your training you can laminate these for me. Ok, buddy?”

Wolverine looked at me like I was crazy. “Laminate your own posters,” he said in a curt manner.

Woooooooooooooooooooooow! I wasn’t expecting that from Mr. Wolverine! Took me by surprise. I never heard him say more than three words! Plus, every time I saw him he always had an expressionless look on his face!

Well, someone doesn’t have a sense of humor, I thought. In reality, I didn’t want his rookie hands to touch my posters, anyway!

Anyhow, I gathered my belongings and headed towards the door. On my way out, I looked him in the eyes and said, “Just make sure you don’t break the machine!” I laughed and went back to my classroom.

From that point on, I remember running into him at least one more time before the second quarter of the school year.

I saw him in the hallway. He was putting information on his student data cards. Teasing, I asked him if he could finish my data cards (sometimes I say things just to get a reaction out of people—just for fun).

He looked taken-a-back. Then, in a snarky tone, he looked at me and gave a direct. “No!”

I laughed and went on my merry way.

He was Wolverine alright. Just as mean and nasty as the character in the comics and X-Men movie. Somewhat brutish in nature…lol!

Later on, in the school year, I saw him again. This time, we crossed paths because I had to deescalate a situation with one of his students. This is an important minor detail in our story that I won’t elaborate on for the sake of time. So, I will fast forward to how he got my number in the next post.

Turns out ol’ Wolverine had game!

Coming from a girl that had a track record of runnin’ game on guys, I must confess I didn’t see it coming…

Signed, MrsMKauthor

O Wolverine was my husband. Obviously, I didn’t know it at the time, but God knew! That blows my mind! I had no idea.

I wasn’t looking for a boyfriend—better yet, a husband. I had just gotten out of relationship and I had too much going on in my life to be starting a new one.

I didn’t want to be bothered with dating. I decided to focus on bettering myself and maturing my relationship with the Lord. If it was God’s plan for me to be married, He would send the right person into my life. In the meantime, I would wait on the Lord.

My advice: If you are waiting on the Lord for ANYTHING, continue to WAIT on Him! He might not come WHEN you want HIM or HOW you want Him BUT HE IS ALWAYS ON TIME!

 W Psalm 27:13-14 New International Version (NIV)

I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living.
 Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord.

D Dear God, I will wait for You. You know what’s best for me. I will stand on Your Word in Jeremiah 30:18: …the Lord longs to be gracious to [me]; therefore he will rise up to show [me] compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him! Help me to be patient and wait for You, dear God, in all situations.

In Jesus name, Amen

 

 

Sometimes You Gotta Lose to WIN

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***If you haven’t already done so, check out the About Me section of the blog. For the next 13 weeks, I will be writing about how my husband and I met. I will be switching up the format for the posts. Instead of W.O.R.D. it will be R.O.W.D. to help my stories flow a lil’ betta. Ok? Cool? Now, on with the story…

R I think I’ve told this story at least a thousand times. LOL! Cause when people see us they instantly wonder “How did they meet?” We laugh every time.

It’s crazy how we met, though. I remember the day like it was yesterday.

I was coming out of the portables headed to the main building of the school we both worked at. I was in a rush to chop it up with my friends before the professional development training that was to happen that morning. It had been a VERY longgggggggg summer and I was super excited to see everyone!

For some reason, I knew it was going to be an interesting school year.

That day, I was feeling myself. My hair was in a cute bush. I had on my favorite camouflage, cargo shorts with my faithful Mickey Mouse shirt and Sperry boat shoes. (I like to switch-up my looks: I can go from wearing 4-inch stilettos, to Vans, to Timberland boots, you name it…my style depends on my mood for the day).

So, I’m leaving the portables, when I noticed this guy walking from the parking lot. We were both headed towards the entrance to the building. He looked like Wolverine from the X-Men movie! LOL! A very handsome Wolverine, I might add. A white guy with a dark tan. Had a pencil in his ear. Nice jeans. Plaid shirt. Sleeves rolled up. Carrying an arm full of books.

Sheesh! I thought. He must be a rookie! No seasoned teacher shows up to the first day of PD with books! LOL! (The first day is normally “Getting to Know You” games and activities at our school.)

Anyway, with my swag game on 10, I introduced myself. I mean he had to know who I was, right?

He didn’t give me too much attention, though. Paid me no mind. LOL!

He kindly thanked me for opening the door for him (‘cause he didn’t have his keys to the building yet…newbie…) and went about his business. And so did I…

Although I remember feeling very happy that day, my heart was broken. At that time, I was going through a lot in my personal life.

Man, I was tired. Tired of chasing a relationship with my “on-and-off again” boyfriend that I knew deep down inside wasn’t for me. I knew the relationship WASN’T MEANT TO BE. But I wouldn’t let go…couldn’t break away. Guess that’s why we were so “on-and-off again” for years.

Until one day, I reached my max…

I told God, “I’m tired of living the way I have been living. Lord, if this person is not for me, I NEED YOU to remove him from my life…and remove any and everything from my life that is not of You.”

AND…GOD MOVED! A few days later, after I prayed that prayer, I got dumped! Crazy thing is I’d never been dumped before in my life.

It blindsided me because at the time, I forgot about that prayer.

I ain’t gonna lie, I was crushed. It hurt…REAL BAD! I was secretly hoping the relationship would work out.

I knew it was the end, too! I felt it. It was hard to accept. Especially since there was so much time and energy invested in the relationship. I guess it was God’s will for it to end.

No. Matter of fact, it was God’s will.

It’s crazy to me how the situation happened. Sometimes we pray for God to move, but when He does we can’t believe it! I prayed for God to intervene in my situation, but I was shocked when He did—how it all happened and where it happened. I didn’t expect the relationship to end as it did…abruptly! Smh.

But God is full of surprises…good ones though. He had a plan…something better in store for me.

Cause little did I know I would be married in a couple of months (yes, I said months) to the man of my dreams. Married to that Wolverine guy who I saw in the parking lot…the rookie. LOL!

To Be continued….

Signed, MrsMKauthor

O God desires for us to have the BEST life. Everything we need is in Him—a life of peace, joy, and love. We must be obedient and follow God’s direction. We have to let go of some things in order to have the abundant life He wants to give us. It may be hard, but there is purpose in the pain. Through trials, tribulations, and temptations I have learned to trust in God.

My advice to anyone going through a similar situation is to: Trust the process! The result of trusting God is increased faith—something invaluable! God is faithful.

Something to Ponder: What are you holding onto with a tight fist that God is asking you to let go of?

W Ephesians 3:20 New International Version (NIV)

20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

Ephesians 3:20-21 The Message (MSG)

20-21 God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us.

Glory to God in the church!
Glory to God in the Messiah, in Jesus!
Glory down all the generations!
Glory through all millennia! Oh, yes!

D Dear God, Teach us to follow You. Put in our hearts a desire to seek and follow Your will. Give us Your strength to let go of anything that keeps us from “the promises” You have for our lives. Help us to get rid of everything that slows us down, especially the sin that just won’t let go. Give us the patience to wait on You. For we know Your ways are not like our ways. We put our trust in You.

In Jesus name, Amen